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Sheila’s Third Block: Backache
By Stephen Proskauer MD | January 15, 2010
Sheila’s headache was gone now, revealing her third block: pain in
her back. I asked what her backache wanted to say. “You never supported me. All you cared about was my going to school and earning money. You never came to any of my softball games or even read the poetry I wrote. All you cared about was how much money I made, so I stopped making money. Because that’s all that mattered to you, now I feel like a big failure.”
Sheila had mentioned earlier in the session that a few years previously she had resigned from her position and gone through a serious depression, keeping her financially dependent on her aging parents. At this point, I asked her what she was trying to tell her father when she quit her job. She replied, “I’m more than that. I matter anyway!” Sheila felt a wave of sadness come over her: “I felt so lonely. I wanted to make you proud of me. But I don’t want what you think of me to matter—I am angry that it matters so much, how much control my father has over me still.”
Actually, it was Sheila’s intensely ambivalent feelings about her father that controlled her adult behavior, not really her father. If she had been conscious of these feelings, perhaps Sheila wouldn’t have had to quit her job only to defy him and demand to receive his support symbolically by the only route he understood, financial.
This post is from the book
Karmic Therapy Healing the Split Psyche
Chapter 3 Somatic Splitting: Frozen Karma
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